Girls are made of sugar and spice but the ones with tattoos are naughty and nice.

... you tell me what you want and I'll tell what you get, you get away from me....

 

So with my new found will to change my life I have decided that I can't keep secrets that eat me up inside. One of the secrets is that I was molested by my neighbor, Brett, molested me from ages 6-11. The green is me, and red is him.

 

[05:44] A Shot of Irish Cream: Hi.
[06:13] A Shot of Irish Cream: We have talked in a long time, but my life has been drastically changing. One of the changes is not keeping any secrets: new or old. If I could go back and change what happened... I would've pressed charges. I can't do that now because too much time has passed; but I can let what you did to me be known.
[06:21] A Shot of Irish Cream: Do you have anything to say? Will you at least acknowledge what I told you?
[07:03] Brett: sorry i was away from my keyboard let me know when you online next time. hope your doin ok cya
[07:03] *** Auto-response sent to Brett: In class
[08:47] A Shot of Irish Cream: I'm on.
[09:01] Brett: hey there
[09:02] Brett: is that your back? i just got one on my back rescently
[09:02] A Shot of Irish Cream: I just needed you to know.
[09:04] Brett: lol whats come over you....did you go to aa or something. wheres all this coming from. you wont talk to me anymore except about this shit. i ddint do anything to tramatize you, whatevers goin on in your life you should take responsibility for and not blam others....even you say you would press charges is retarded you had nothing to press them with i did nothing
[09:05] A Shot of Irish Cream: No AA.
[09:05] Brett: all i was was nice to you when others wernt if you remember right. i was loder then you and i always was nice to you
[09:05] Brett: did you forget all that
[09:06] Brett: older*\
[09:06] Brett: sorry my typing my monitor is far away from my desk atm
[09:06] A Shot of Irish Cream: I'm not pressing any charges.
[09:07] Brett: lol what would you press anyway......i didnt rape you or anything i dont know where this is coming from
[09:07] Brett: why would you even say this shit in the first place
[09:08] Brett: ive always been your friend and i havent even really hung out with you sense i was like 15
[09:10] Brett: sorry if im not more understanding but your talking crazy, youve had a rough time in life sometimes and i think your making things bigger then they really are.  ..i hope things go well for you i really do,
[09:13] A Shot of Irish Cream: I'm not keeping secrets anymore. You may think what you did was nothing, and I did allow you to think it was nothing. But your actions affected me then, and even more now. I'm sorry we share the same secret, but my half of the secret is coming out.
[09:19] A Shot of Irish Cream: Do you understand now?
[09:30] A Shot of Irish Cream: I would really like to know that you understand my reasoning.
[09:39] Brett: no i dont and i have no idea what your talking about and i think you are a little crazy if i may say. im sorry youir goin through withever it is that your goin through. as far as im concered your fucking goin nuts....i would understand if what your saying made sense i think your blowing shit out of propoortion.  i dont even know what to think about what your saying. if it will help you then
[09:39] *** Auto-response sent to Brett: I am currently idle.
[09:41] Brett: i understand and i hope all is well for you. otherwise please just leave me alone from here on out. i think your letting your feelings about what has happened in your life take over your memories.  thik about how we got alone back then and try and move on. good bye
[09:41] *** "Brett" signed off at Mon Sep 10 21:41:49 2007.

 

 

I am pretty sure I couldn't ask for anything better to happen. Well, wait, yes I could. If would take responsability... but how can you expect a 23 year old to be mature? When I first confronted him he took the blame like man, now he's scared.

 

I plan to tell my sister first. I'll update it.